I’m 51, probably in peri. I’ve been struggling with anger for a while now but lately I feel like everything is just too much and I’m constantly thinking of how I can just kill myself. It’s constant. Lying awake at night wondering how I’d do it, how can I do it painlessly, how can I do it so my family are not financially impacted, or how can I leave and never look back?
i don’t think I will do it, but why can’t I stop this loop in my head? Why am I tearful all the time? I’m just to exhausted with it. How can I stop these thoughts?
[Post edited by MNHQ to remove mention of methods]