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My life is falling apart and I don't want to be here anymore

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Totallybannanas · 05/07/2025 15:20

My dad is dying and currently in a hospice, I need to find him a home. My 20 year old sort as decided to go off the rails again and came home drunk and obviously taken something which made him aggressive and throw my door off it's hinges resulting in me calling the police. They took him my elderly mum's to stay and he is out drinking even on work days and not coming home. I went back to work a few weeks ago on a phased return, but now they are putting pressure on me to work more hours as they are short staffed. My son out me through 3 years of hell and it took a while to get him a job and back in the the right track and now he tipping me over the edge. I've become my dad's carer as my brother also works and can't be there all the time. I'm torn and I am worn down. I just don't want to be here anymore. I almost wish my dad would hurry up and die. He's running me ragged, other family and the stress and pressure of finding a home is breaking me. Obviously I haven't told him about his GS. My dad is declining and becoming needy and is a completely different person. I'm so done and don't want to be here anymore.

JoMumsnet · 05/07/2025 16:54

Hello TotallyBananas, we're so sorry you're going through such a difficult time.

We can see that you're getting some good advice and support here on your thread but we thought it important to signpost you to a few places where you can get support in real life as well.

Do take a look at our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected].
Some further support links:
NHS: Where to get urgent help for mental health
NHS: Looking after your mental health
CALM: The Campaign Against Living Miserably

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