I’m 26 year old single mum with a 3 year old DS and a 4 year old DD.
My DS has complex needs due to a rare genetic disorder which presents itself as an intellectual disability. He has so many issues that I won’t even go into as I’ll be here all day. My DD also has SEN and will be going to a special school this September. Both are non/pre verbal.
Day to day life is EXHAUSTING. So many meltdowns, lack of understanding from both children, constant verbal stims and sensory issues. I’m overstimulated all day everyday and I hate everything that comes with having these children.
I had my first ever suicide attempt in December 2024 which was obviously unsuccessful. I’m currently going having CBT to help with depression and anxiety and it’s made me realise that I’ve had these negative thoughts and feelings since I first got pregnant in 2020. There’s genuinely no escaping how I feel because I hate my life.
There’s no support from social care as they literally do not give a fuck. The children with disabilities team also couldn’t give two shits. I’m lucky enough to have support from my mum who now has my children two nights a week since my attempt. The children’s dad is involved and he has them when he can but none of this seems to help. I almost feel like my life would drastically improve if I didn’t have full time care of my children. I don’t know what to do anymore. I just hate this life that I’m stuck with. Thanks for reading