I’m just feeling really hopeless about the future. I’m so unhappy and I have had these fleeting thoughts of how good and easy it would be to just die and be done with it. I’m obviously not going to go through it, it’s just thoughts right now. If I genuinely wanted to kill myself I wouldn’t be writing in here I would have just done it by now. The only thing stopping me is my little boy - the thought of him crying for me and asking where I am. I’m very close to him and have a good relationship with him and I know this will wreck his life.
I know this sounds silly but I’m having thoughts that my DH and other shitty people will realise how bad they’ve treated me and regret it but I won’t do it just for my son’s sake. Can anyone relate to this please and give me some advice? How did you overcome these thoughts?