Marriage broken down after 3 years of painfully trying to make it work after baby. I have no decent experience or qualifications to get a good job, currently working part time for partner, scared shitless of becoming a single mum and having to return to work full time to scrape us by and never seeing my LO, of watching my partner move on and take my child away without me, of everything that comes with a divorce.
Feel like a waste of space (I always have), the only thing I’ve ever been good at is raising my amazing daughter. She is the only reason I am still alive or I would’ve gone a long time ago. She saved my life. But I can’t bare the thought of growing up being an embarrassment to her.
She is the only thing stopping me from going through with my thoughts as our bond is so strong and I could never imagine doing that to her we are joined at the hip and spend every second together. No real bond to my family and no friends so she is all I have but I’ve been in pain for so long and nothing has helped (therapy, meds etc).
don’t know what I’m looking for here, similar experiences? Survivors? Reassurance that she will be okay if I do go ahead? I just need to get the words out.