I Amjad an awful morning. My mother turned and had a pure hateful senial moment and it set me up with a migraine for the day. I still had to go to work. Work has been ok-ish. It has been very busy and I had to nearly bully people just to get to the toilet. I was so busy earlier in the day I never had time to get to the toilet and basically I had period blood just dripping down my leg because the pad I put on this morning was soaked.
Work has just been so busy.
I am in an absolute god damn awful place. All of it. Mentally. I don't have any places to do anything drastic but sometimes I do think about IT but I don't have plans and I am too much of a coward but I am in that bad state mentally where there are so many things sin my life that can really tip me over easily. There is just too much stress happening.
I have hair appointment booked for tomorrow morning. I booked it weeks ago.
I don't want to go into my hairdresser and he chats to me and asks me how I am - I don't want to be depressed. I don't want to drag him down. I usually try and be positive.
I am definitely in a place where I will go home tonight and knock back a bottle of wine or vodka.
I am in a bad place mentally. It's everything. I have a hair appointment in the morning but I don't want to be depressed for my hairdresser.