I can't kil myself because of DD 10 but I can't go on. I'm on ADs, have therapy, have supportive friends. Everything people recommend I've already tried. I have a responsible job which I'm failing at. But my job is essential to my mental health (teacher who normally hates the holidays). I have some prep work to do before tomorrow that I can't do. But I have to. I have to fight through. I always have before, but I seem to be giving up. If I lose my job I lose everything. DP and I are splitting up. Everything is a mess.