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[BlueBlue72]

Hey, I'm feeling really low just now. I've been drinking and I've not been taking my anti depressants for a few weeks. I didn't intend to come off them but I have and at first everything seemed OK. I've had a lovely evening but I think drinking hasn't been the best idea as its made me feel that it would be OK to not be here anymore.

Hello lovely. Didn’t want to read and run. I’m sorry that you’re feeling low. Can you try and pick a few nice things coming up over Christmas that you can look forward too? Spending time with family? Some nice time off work to relax? Any nice events to look forward too?

I would put your head to rest and try and sleep this off and hopefully in the morning you will wake up with a much better mindset.

Feelings are just temporary remember and are always subject to change.

Sending lots of love xx

Hello, everything will be seeming a lot bleaker this evening because of the alcohol and the fact that you have come off your antidepressants.
Do you know why you stopped the antidepressants?

Hi

didn’t want to read and run. I think you know it’s the drink talking . You would definitely not be better off not here. Have you tried the Samaritans? https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help full details on this link

Hey love. Have you got some left? Can you take one now? How much have you drunk, it might be that there's a way back. We all have blips x

Thank you for replying. I just feel so rubbish and I know it's the drinking that has exacerbated it.

I do have meds left, I just didn't take them because initially I forgot (even though I've been taking them for years) and also because it just seemed like a massive effort to take them. Which I know sounds ridiculous. I'd be getting ready to go to bed, remember I hadn't taken them and the thought of having to get a drink of water in order to take them just send to much effort.

I'm 'off' now for Christmas but everything just feels like it's too much. Even though when I break it down, it really isn't.

Would it help if you set an alarm to take your meds at a time when it’s more convenient to get a glass of water? Sending so much love ❤️

Try and get back on the medication when you can. I came off mine a few years ago thinking I was okay and sank badly. I've accepted now I will always be on them - they give me a better quality of life.

I kind of accepted I needed to be on them forever really. But after realising I hadn't taken them for a while I thought 'hey, I've been OK maybe I can cope without them'. And I can cope most of the time without them but when there's any tiny bit of stress it starts to build up... I'm fine to begin with and then I start to overreact to things. Initially I think these are my real feelings but what's hard is that I don't feel like I can express them properly in a measured way. If that mashed sense.

👋 hey there, when I feel low at a particular time, sometimes I watch an episode or two of a comedy series as a distraction eg. Friday Night Dinner, Derry Girls, Ghosts etc - just ones with short episodes at the point that I may feel particularly bad.

Maybe set your mind to start again in the morning. Meds can make a difference to quality of life. Try to sleep now, hopefully tomorrow will feel brighter.

I have tried setting alarms. I had got myself into a good pattern of taking them in the morning without the alarms but once it feels like too much effort it all goes to pot. And then it makes me feel rubbish because I can't even stick to the schedule that I set up.

Thank you for mentioning Derry Girls and Ghosts. I've watched them both and they're great! My mum actually went to the school that is portrayed in Derry Girls.

Meds definitely make a difference. I think this time I've felt like they're numbing me.

Thank you for taking the time to reply, really thank you. it really has made me feel better, more worthy of life. I do have some really close friends, but this is not the sort of conversation I want to burden them with which is why I thought I'd put it out into the ether. Thank you'd again.

I'm trying to get through to the Samaritans but they're not answering yet.

Hey hun are you okay?, if you feel you can't keep yourself safe then phone 111 and option 2 for mental health x

If you haven't been taking your meds for a few weeks perhaps get advice on dosage when you start again rather than taking original dose when you stopped.
Alcohol is not your friend when you feel low.
It easy to spiral when feeling like this I'm sure there are positive things about you.
Hopefully you can get some sleep.

Thank you. Managed to get through to Samaritans, think I was hanging up too quickly initially. Spoke to a really lovely young woman. Bit kinda feel worse. She was very lovely and said all the right things but in the end I had to end the conversation. I think I'll be ok now, i'm really tired and I need to sleep. And I know I'll wake up in the morning feeling mortified that I've shared all this. But thank you again for making me feel less crap.

Nothing to be mortified about it's easy to spiral when low.
Good night op .

Definitely nothing to feel mortified about OP. Keep posting here as there are lots of people who have felt the same and can offer help and support. Take care of yourself today and try to be kind to yourself xx

Well done for phoning them - it can’t have been easy.

Try getting outside today - maybe a walk- movement and fresh air always makes a difference for me x

Thank you everyone, you've been so kind. I had a day of doing very little today. I think I do need to start taking my medication again and give the alcohol a swerve. Thanks again.

Thanks for the update. Doing very little sounds like just what you needed. I also think it sounds sensible to go back to the meds and avoid drinking.

How are you OP?