Does anyone relate to this? I feel like I need reassurance as a human being.
My dad passed away last year and I've been grieving all of a sudden I feel like it's very much on the forefront of my emotions again. I have this sick feeling in my chest that he's looking down on me with disappointment. I feel depressed, I feel like I suddenly think I'm this bad person, I feel like I could be nicer to people and I feel like I'm being spectating on and that I don't deserve to be alive. I feel like I want to die. My two year old turning 3 is all for his dad even tho I am the one who spends all my time with him and does everything for him and people always tell me how unusual it is for a toddler boy to be all for their dad and not their mam, and now I wonder if unconsciously he must think I'm a bad person too. I feel like I don't deserve to be alive. I feel like this intense feeling has taken over my being and it's crippling me.