Suicidal

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I've been unable to sleep properly for past week almost (sleep is ok generally). I worry about getting to sleep ironically. Barely getting even one hour tonight.

Suicidal thoughts are also there. Just about stopping myself doing something.

I’m also menopausal.

Saw my GP who thinks it’s HRT related and I need more but I’ve got palpitations, irrational thoughts (prob due to not sleeping) anxiety and it’s crippling.

Spoke to Samaritans who was lovely but he was an older man who hadn’t been through this before.,.

I think I’d try sleeping tablets even though I was scared of taking them when younger.

please help.

I don't have any answers for you but you are not alone. I'm awake in the dark and night too. It's the worst time for bad thoughts and panic. I tell myself that daylight will bring new hope, if nothing else I will get out of the bed and go outdoors and have a change of scene, being in the world and outside of my own head.

I try to be thankful for the good. People that care for me and I them.

I try to take pleasure in small things - a sunny day, nice food

And if none of that works I just scroll mindlessly on my phone as a distraction and know that better times (even if only a little better) will come.

Life is hard and you have to be kind to yourself. I try not to berate myself for not feeling happy but instead see it as a temporary state out of my control that will pass. Who knows what the future holds? And that can be exciting, not just scary, if you learn to frame it right.

I hope I've not said the wrong thing. I'm just a person with struggles too. But don't give up.

It might just be the lack of sleep. Have you looked into getting a prescription for sleeping pills ?

So sorry you're going through this. I went through something similar - the lack of sleep made me start to stop thinking straight and the more I couldn't sleep the worse it got - like a vicious cycle.

I was also scared of sleeping pills but a temporary prescription really helped. I started just taking half the prescribed tablet and that was all I even needed. If you can get some tablets - try to take on an empty stomach as they are most effective if you can absorb them fully.

Other helpful things are melatonin, not worrying about sleeping - just absorb yourself in something you're interested in and you're more likely to drop off. You can also try over the counter antihistamines.

If there are underlying worries keeping you awake (over and above not being able to sleep) then maybe counselling could help.

Suicidal thoughts are also there. Just about stopping myself doing something.

I'm sorry but I need to highlight your above comment here, because if you have suicidal thoughts this needs to be reported to Mumsnet HQ as duty of care.

please please seek real world help as soon as possible, MNers are not equipped or qualified to help you, although we are here for general chat (they are two different things).

take care.

I have reported this to the moderators.

I tried to ring for an ambulance but it’s not serious enough…

It is serious enough for an ambulance and there ARE treatments that can help you.

Please call for help - do not continue to suffer.

Some decent sleep, an HRT review and other medications/support can change your life. Please reach out for help.

Hi there xx can you try to ring again? Who said it wasn't serious?
Don't downplay how you're feeling to them 😘

Ambulance not coming but at friends. Waiting for nhs to ring back.

I am staying with my stepfather who’s verbally abusive.

Waiting for ambulance

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

How are you Op?

I’m in a Crisis centre for 7 days (6 now). Not good but not terrible either.

Thanks for asking.

I'm pleased you're being looked after. There IS recovery on the horizon for you.

Look after yourself.

I've also had these thoughts lately. I've been scared at how close I've come some days. Just know you aren't alone. Feel free to DM me.