cant stop crying,desperate,want to cut,but wont

[WAStyedye]

surgeon cant fix damage,exe being vile,can barely speak,so down

you poor thing, what's going on?

What is the problem?

stay strong

he hid his new girlfriend,upstairs,and i said quietly that it would be good for kids if she and i could meet in front of them,he says she wont cos of what im like.hes violent and abusive and ripped me off

i just wanted to say hi

i ended up texting him that she will find out what he is soon enough and that i hoped she didnt have kids too young to fight back etc

i selfharmed last year so bad,thumb impaired,not mendable,cos of him,and she wont be introduced,cos of my abuse,i live in a fucking caravan and my son is suicidally depressed cos of him

Sorry you are feeling so crap
Do you want to give us some more details?

erm...i left last june,on my birthday,when he assaulted me,he screwed 60k out of a house i paid for,i still have nightmares cos of his abuse,im catatonic w depression now

I remember bits of your story from last year if you are who I think you are You have done well keep it up

Don't do it 'cos if you do he's won. STOP and think. Your son needs you and if you s/h you are not there for him. Is there anyone in R/L that you can talk to now or see or can you phone anyone? You can phone me if you just need someone to talk you away from the situation. Nothing is ever as bad is someone else is there sharing it with you. If you want me to I'll put my no. on here now and you can phone me..NOW! I am worried about you because I am on M/net and I'm a regular. Talk to anyone you know...XXXXX

keep talking.. 'cos you know someone will always be here.

i am who you think i am...im going tp phone samaritans now,thank you

or, if you need to talk right now, ring the Samaritans

don't cut, talk. There's always someone here. What's bothering you the most?

Talk to the Samaritans as you have said and please let "us" know how you are. I am juggling work and M/Net at the mo but am happy to give you an e-mail or a phone no. if you need it.

i talked to them,am a bit ca;lmer,still really weepy and pessimistic tho

ive ditched all my social networking sites,taking up too much time and space,and im setting myself up for further pain

There are no really quick fixes, it IS a question of slowly slowly, working out what's wrong and how best you can help yourself. Talking is always better than harming yourself in any way. I'm glad the Samaritans were helpful.

how will it ever get better,they hate me for the pain they feel,and then they will leave home,whats the point?

There's a lot in between 'hating you for the pain they feel' and 'leaving home'. How old are they? Do you believe you are the cause of their pain?

3 7 14 and 17,i had children with fucking bastards,ergo its my fault

3,7,14,etc..bad punctuation

it will get better but it will take a long time, look how strong you are moving on without him despite all that he has done. Look how strong you are posting on her instead of SH.

Big hugs, you've made poor choices in the past perhaps but that is the past this is your future.

stay strong

keep strong and keep talking to people about it - try to let go of the past you are in a better place now. you got the kids out of a dangerous situation now you need to carry on being strong - you have had a set back but you survived