Severe health anxiety, worried about breast pain

[Emma200812]

Hi all. I haven't been on Mumsnet for years but it was a very kind and helpful place to me when I was last on and I'm hoping it can be the same for me now. I'll try and keep this brief.

I have been diagnosed with a severe anxiety disorder. I'm on medication and beta blockers and I start high intensity cbt therapy next week. Just to give some context to where my head is at.

I am absolutely terrified I have incurable breast cancer. I've had a tender spot since Nov, and overall achey boobs every month that go when my period comes. I spent 4 weeks having a huge anxiety spell where I was convinced I was unwell then the pain went away including the tender area. I was checked by my gp, she felt nothing, no lumps. But said I did have an inflamed rib, told me to come back in 4 weeks and to keep my hands off. Well the anxiety within me hasn't done that, I keep prodding dont I.

Anyway after my period the pain came back. Both boobs currently really ache and are heavy but the left one is always worse and has a tender area under my nipple. To make matters worse I've noticed today that I have what I thought were enlarged pores on both nreasts, in my cleavage, that also go onto my torso, see pic attached.

I guess I'm just looking for some reassurance as to whether this is pores or an IBC dimpling etc. I'm so terrified. I'm seeing my gp tomorrow but could just do with some hand holding tonight.

Thank you xx

I have never been on mums net. This is also the first time I've ever posted on here. You can no doubt check that out. I know it will help you to paint me as a certain type of person, but you're very wrong. I felt the need to speak due to one specific comment you made about wanting to be present for your children. It brought back memories and reminded me of the environment that a parent with hypochondria can cause. I know it's a mental health disorder, also currently known as 'health anxiety'. The problem with the written word is that you chose the tone of the writer. There is nothing aggressive in my message, but due to you being sensitive (again, a form of paranoia), you are interpreting what I am.saying as an attack. I think you have to accept that when you post a question, you won't just get the exact answers/replies that you hope for. You may get other people's life experiences. Please think about that rationally, and you never know, it may actually help you.