Thought today was the day

[Mylifehasimploded]

I really considered ending my life today.
id been given a letter with a phone number on to ring at any time, I rang it, waited 15 minutes for an answer to be told there’s a crisis cafe open Wednesday nearby.
really helpful, anyway I couldn’t do it in the end as it’s my children who would find me when they come home in the morning. My daughter was abused by my dad, and it’s messed up my mind. I just survive day to day, not living, just surviving. I want out, too scared to do it

I'm hearing you Mylifehasimploded.

This sounds beyond tough.

Hat off to you for seeing this through and hanging in there so far.

Happy to connect - PM me -

And sending love and healing

Speak to the Samaritans when you feel like this, and get your gp to refer you to a counsellor.

suicidal thoughts are common, please know it’s a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Right now, you have no idea how loved you truly are. You are important, wanted and loved by those around you, especially your daughter.

we are here if you want to open up about why you feel this way, but you definitely need someone irl to talk to.

So sorry to hear what you have been through @Mylifehasimploded
Keep talking here. We are listening.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Sending love your way OP. xxx

Thanks for your messages. I’m ok
I had a row with my daughter who was abused, we both struggle to navigate this. It destroys the whole family.
thank you for your support. I appreciate it

During dark chapters of my life, i found viewing life as 24 hour blocks helped somewhat and then broke each unit of 24 hours down into hourly blocks, sometimes smaller.

eg wake up
dull feeling of dread descends.

what are the next 3 tasks i will do? Or even what will my next task be?

-clean my teeth
ok, get up ,clean teeth

-while cleaning teeth
what will my next task be?

-get changed
etc etc

I’m so sorry you are going through this.
I really wish for brighter days for you 💐