I can give you my experience. Bad PND and PTSD from traumatic birth of first child 16 years ago. Put on it quickly and bad side effects for 3 weeks heart palpitations etc and then it calmed and I was great for 4 years and then weaned off really slowly. Straight to 20 mg weaned off over about a year.
About 2 years off them I got pregnant with next child and struggled after the birth. Then marriage broke up with a newborn and I spiralled. Went on 20 mg again after 4 weeks of side effects felt great. Ex was very difficult and I stayed on them upping my dose and lowering from 20 mg to 30 to 40 and then back down when ex was causing less stress. Came off them after 4 years.
About 3 years ago I went through a major trauma and again went back on them and found 20 mg is great and I don’t think I will come off them. I’ve had 3 years of therapy and my life and career as a single parent and stressful career are hard.
If I go through stress in a major way I take a beta blocker and it just calms me.
I do headspace and find that helps as does ensuring I use a light box every morning (my vitamin D is low) I make myself walk each lunchtime as my office is in a basement and I make myself exercise outside each day. I’m low carbs as they make me sluggish. No alcohol and no caffeine. I also take HRT.
all year round I have fairy lights all around the garden and lounge on timers so the house feels welcome.
I reread ‘Feel the fear’ on a regular basis and also go to bed reading Chicken soup for the soul. I spend time off my phone reading, knitting, gardening, walking the dog, by the sea and try to do something good each day, for my pet, for each child, for a work colleague, a friend and a stranger and myself little pat on the back. Eg buy a chocolate bar for the postie and leave it with a note saying thank you etc
We also have family meeting and I do Project Me and journaling. I see a counsellor once a fortnight it’s £50 a session but literally saved my life.
Waiting for an autism assessment which I’m sure I am and also healing from abuse both from my parents and ex.
I don’t want to come off them - absolutely amazing for me. Be kind to yourself xx