Just that really.
My childhood was horrendous with biological mother and step father (think all forms of abuse). ‘Rescued’ by biological father which then continued with emotional abuse.
Had my own children young.
Went no contact with biological father and siblings for the sake of my sanity.
Now feeling what a terrible person and mum I truly must be.
My poor children being brought into a world where money is non existent, no stable home (private rent).
I feel like I have selfishly failed them.
What if the family were better off without me and I deserved / brought everything on myself.
I feel like the world would be a better place without me and my children would stand a better chance of a life of happiness and success.