OP, I think this show has ramped up your anxiety unnecessarily.
I'm on Citalopram for anxiety and anic attacks. I know it works for me and frankly, I don't care if some say it's a placebo effect ot about long term side effects or weaning off it.
Why would I wean off if it genuinely helps me live a better, more balanced life every day?
Why would I make myself struggle daily without it again? The level of stress and worry I was under (and still am), and my reactions to it weren't healthy. They were affecting my physical health too and longer term they would have likely led to serious illnesses, such as heart disease, high blood pressure, hormonal imbalance, obesity and everything that comes with it due to emotional binging, digestive system issues, the list goes on and on.
I need to feel better to live a better life. I need medical to make me feel better because other things such as CBT, exercise, yoga etc didn't cut it. They've only started working for me few months after I started on Citalopram. I have no doubt that Citalopram gave me more peace of mind and motivation/self belief to do the right things for me in the first place. I therefore do not worry that in 15 years time I may develop an illness. This would have pretty much certainly happened to me had it not been for Citalopram. I don't even know if I'll live long enough to ever develop an associated illness. I don't know if I ever develop it at all. So I don't worry now. I know my life is better and healthier now thanks to Citalopram. Would I wean off? Maybe one day if I feel I don't need it anymore. Maybe not.
I think it's important to take a step back and think about the pros and cons holistically and not let someone else's opinions affect what's right for you. 💐