I have been in a long term relationship of 17 years. Partner owns the house.
We split in the past due to his cheating. It almost killed me emotionally.
We stayed together as I had nowhere to go, and could not afford anywhere to rent and pay bills.
I had no self esteem previously due to mental health illnesses. I warned him that one more time and that was it.
Years on and now I find out he has been meeting women for one off encounters sexually.
I suffer with life long mental health issues, since 15 years old. I am now many years older. I take medication daily. Counselling did not help.
As time goes on I live for my Pets. I do not feel attracted to my partner. We sleep seperately and have done for a few years. I did not trust him obviously.
Having mental health issues has ruined my life. I want to leave but have nowhere to go. There is no one in my life anymore.
I approached the Council but was told mental health or not, I will have to wait. Therefore I will become homeless.
I am so anxious, scared, upset and one minute positive and the next negative. For days, apart from when I sleep, my head feels like it will burst with thoughts of what will I do.
Once my lovely Dog dies then I am taking my life. Life has been nothing but a struggle, with a few good times. Mostly it has been not good.
Has anyone had a similar experience? If so, then please would you share. I do not know what to do.
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