I’ve posted on here a few times, please don’t pile on if my previous posts have annoyed you.
I’m in an extremely dark place, separated 11 weeks ago today. The depression is getting more severe; been on mirtazapine for 3 weeks now. I’ve started having constant thoughts of harming myself. I’m in contact with nhs professionals but I just feel as though I’ve died inside.
I’ve always been such a strong confident woman - I am no longer myself. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up.
there’s no other woman, he just doesn’t love me or want to be with me any more. Together 13 years, married just over 4. I’ve begged him to reconsider several times, he refuses and is really nasty about it, told me to throw myself in a river today.
can’t stop looking at couples around me, I just want to stay at home and die tbh. The thought of my DD is no longer a protective factor, I’ve driven her away from me.
is it normal to feel like this? I’m so scared, nothing is getting better for me, it’s just getting worse and I feel completely worthless