Just that, really
I've reached my mid 50s and I am just so depressed.
I've been a single parent for many years after an abusive, shitstorm of a relationship. I adored the man but found out that he had a whole family elsewhere and was a compulsive liar.
I've struggled with mental ill health ever since really. I looked after my mother who died when I was 30. I did all the 'right' things - went to uni as a single parent and trained, became a teacher. I struggled with getting a job and finally did, moved up, got promoted, then moved to another school which has been horrific. I live in a rented flat, which I can barely afford. I'm lonely, I've tried dating apps but can't meet anyone. I've had a few brief relationships after 20 years of being alone, but they don't last. I've a few friends, one or two good ones but the majority are acquaintances. I live hand to mouth, have had no holidays in years.
My child is doing okay, has met someone, moved in with them a couple of years ago and is happy. I meanwhile have empty nest syndrome. I'm lost without them. They are getting on with their life and have their own friends and I don't see them all that often. I am happy for them but just feel.. what was the point of everything? I've worked so hard, so bloody hard for years and I have nothing. I've lost my looks, put on weight, and I'm just so depressed. I can't see the point of anything anymore.