Crisis team let down

[existingbutnotliving]

So my GP referred me after a difficult conversation Friday afternoon to the crisis team. They called within an hour to try and talk me down (was sat on a car park alone in the car). After 30 minutes on the phone he agreed to call me back every hour to make sure I was still 'there' which he did for a few hours then once he was happy I was at 'home' agreed to have someone call me yesterday 7am.

That call never came, yesterday I found myself in the same if not worse situation waiting for a call and nothing!

Today....nothing. I'm at the end, I'm so detached from everything, I sit staring into space contemplating all options to end this. I'm so numb. Will they call again? Or is this it for me?

Sorry to hear how bad you feel, do you think you can call them?

Sorry to hear you are feeling like this.

Could you call The Samaritans for someone to talk to you now?

www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/

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I'm just so numb right now. I tried to call them yesterday but didn't get and answer after 10 minutes waiting what was the point? My GP as so concerned Friday that he was on the phone to them before I had even closed the door.

I've been going through the motions today for the kids but no doubt I'll be back in the car in a while driving to a quiet spot contemplating how to finish this again. Each day gets harder to see through to the end.

@existingbutnotliving do you feel you could go to the hospital and ask for support?
My trust has psychiatric liaison team in our ED.

There are people out there who want to help. Please Don't feel alone. X

Can you get yourself to A&E? Please, please do, if you can.xx

It would be best if you can try to go to a&e to let them know how you are feeling and they will be able to ensure you get some face to face contact with someone to talk it through.

111 have mental health nurses who can speak to you.

The Samaritans have volunteers who are waiting to speak to you.

A&E have emergency assessments they can do & can be a safe place through crisis.

I know, like I really know, what it's like to be where you are but I also know it comes in waves and usually crisis doesn't endure.

Please try to reach out to someone.

I also know you'd be missed beyond anything you could imagine.

Go to A&E op. I'm so sorry you're feeling so desperate.

Please go to A&E. Or call 999. I know it doesn't feel like it now but there is help out there and there is a reason you need to be here x

As the above posters have said, please either go to A&E or call 999. They have support available and will want to help you. You will be missed beyond measure if you do end it

I’m so sorry. I’ve also had to use a crisis team, and they’ve been useless every time. They’re never interested and they’re never sanctioned for being hopeless.
I hope you can get some help.

You deserve so much better than you’re receiving.

Thank you all for your kind messages.

I did reach out to the crisis team Sunday night while I was sat in my car with all the tablets I had been prescribed. After a long conversation, because I wouldn't disclose my location she decided to escalate the call to the police.

After several messages from the police to share my location and a call from the desk officer, I agreed to meet with them but after a 20 minute conversation convincing them all was good and hiding my bag, I was told I could go and that they would inform my GP, crisis team and suggest they get in touch to help....

That was 2 days ago, and I haven't heard from anyone since.

I'm so sorry, that is awful. I knew MH services were bad but this shows fully how they are failing.
Do you feel able to take yourself to A&E and ask to be admitted for your own safety? Have they given you a safety plan? I'm shocked at how awfully you have been treated. I really hope and pray you get some help, proper help asap

Please please go to A and E so you can get the help you should already have received. You need support and they can help with that.

Unfortunately, I have experienced A&E in the past and was treated horribly because everything was seen as 'self inflicted' so I refuse to go down this line again.

It looks like the police did not inform anyone of the situation the other night as after speaking to my surgery about getting more sleeping tablets today, they knew nothing about it and happily agreed to give me more.

It's just so shocking that I can tell them my plans and they basically help me along with it by giving me more tablets to stockpile and use.
I have another gp appointment in the morning but feel like it's almost pointless now. According to the last crisis team call I am under the CMHT team? I have not heard from this team at all so I questioned this and was told that's what it says on my notes!?

Why bother seeing my gp in the morning if everyone thinks I'm under another team?

The service you've had is not at all good. However, there is likely to be a different team in A&E the next time you go.
You're in crisis. Your thoughts and feelings are not your own usual ones.
I'd say phone 111 for a start and take it from there.