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Mental health

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Feel like I don't want to be here

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Joy2TheWorld · 17/01/2023 07:58

I'm not sure why I'm writing this, I suppose to write my feelings out. I don't want to be here anymore and I dont know what to do. I'm at breaking point yet too scared to do anything about it in case it doesn't work. I'm at such a loss. My anxiety is through the roof due to a situation I don't even want to discuss with anyone. So I'm helpless, left feeling vulnerable, scared, alone and afraid. I don't know what to do at all. I tried a messaging service last night but they were very busy and didn't get back to me until th early hours. By which time I didn't even want to message. I didn't want to call and speak to anyone. I don't know. All I know is I can't go on much longer, I feel I can't take anymore. I just want to disappear forever and feel nothing.

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Eyesopenwideawake · 17/01/2023 09:08

Oh lovie, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. There's a saying you could keep repeating to yourself "this too shall pass" - nothing stays the same, even from day to day. You have been happy in the past, you will be happy again in the future; hang onto that thought. If you don't feel up to speaking to someone could you write it down and show it to your doctor? Or post it here - no matter what you're going through someone will have got through a similar situation and will be able to hold your hand.

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Joy2TheWorld · 17/01/2023 11:33

Thank you so much for your response and kind words, I'm very grateful. At this time I don't have much else to say, but thank you ❤️

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LivingMyBestAnxietyLife · 17/01/2023 11:55

Hi, I have debilitating health anxiety and depression, I'm so sorry your going through this please know better days are coming for us both....your not alone, im here, I understand! Maybe try and see your doctors. I'll hold your hand, im having a hard time myself atm! xoxo

Patchworksack · 17/01/2023 12:16

I’ve lost two wonderful women to suicide in the last year. Please, please find someone to talk to. Could you speak to a Samaritan on 116123 ? They will listen without judgement.

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YetAnotherBeckyMumsnet · 17/01/2023 13:37

Hello @Joy2TheWorld we're so sorry to hear that you're feeling this way.
We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.

You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real life help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Best wishes from MNHQ, OP. We hope you get the support you need.

Lindtcat · 17/01/2023 23:30

Are you feeling any better now OP? Hope you're okay

Movingforwardss · 18/01/2023 01:01

I just wanted to send you a hug... ... I know how very very tough it can be.

Please be kind and gentle to yourself - you are dealing with something huge.

Just getting through each day - or even the next hour - is a big achievement when you are feeling as you do.

It will get better and there really are people out there who want to help.

I was amazed how helpful I found it talking to the Samaritans - I hadn't expected it to be

Silkierabbit · 18/01/2023 01:09

Sending love and thinking of you. Life can be tough at times and best to take it day by day then, that's how I got through cancer. It will get better at some point. Swimming helps me.

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Joy2TheWorld · 18/01/2023 11:31

Hello everyone, thank you for your kind words. I don't feel any better I'm afraid but I'm still here. Again, I'm not sure why I posted but actually, I suppose I am glad I did. Thank you ❤️

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FlumpFlibbertigibbet · 18/01/2023 12:06

Sending best wishes to you @Joy2TheWorld xxx

JamSandle · 18/01/2023 12:08

We've got you. Keep posting. Sometimes it's nice to know someone is listening x

madmumofteens · 18/01/2023 12:14

I really hope that you feel better soon please look after yourself and be kind to you ❤️

walkinthewoodstoday · 18/01/2023 13:51

Do you have any medication? Not that it's always the answer. Is this a new thing that's suddenrly happened or have you had anxiety for a while?

Eyesopenwideawake · 18/01/2023 14:09

Have a look at - https://www.youtube.com/c/TimBoxMindCoach - lots of free, informative and practical videos on the different types of anxiety and how to cope with them.

Look after yourself - you are valuable.

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