For the last 12 years, I have been on five different antidepressants and for the last three years, I have been on two different antipsychotics. I have gained a lot of weight over the years (firstly on the Mirtazapine I was prescribed), but especially on the first antipsychotic (Olanzapine) to the point where now I am morbidly obese. In the last few years, I also feel like my brain is frazzled and I can't concentrate on reading books as much as I used to. I also used to write poetry and monologues but I struggle to focus enough to get anything down now. Years of mental illness have ruined my life and knocked my confidence down. I just don't see the point anymore.