It's seemingly never-endingly miserable.
I used to be really in-bothered and just able to cope with everything and remain somewhat positive but
I can't remember ever being in a position in life where I've been content at all and o really can't imagine ever being in one.
I hate being a single parent, I have literally zero friends because I can't keep up with friendships ever and I just find it beyond overwhelming to navigate life.
My dc are well cared for and loved of course but it takes every ounce of effort I can muster to do bare minimum things and I still mess up all the time.
One of my dc has sen and it's so hard trying to advocate for them and failing at that too.
I've near enough begged my ex partner to help out more with the children (he has them EOW) but he won't, and just gave me a load of abuse and called me pathetic and that other people cope so I should be able to and I'm just at the point where I want to just jump in front of a train or something because what is the point.