To think I'm

[Okok1]

It's seemingly never-endingly miserable.
I used to be really in-bothered and just able to cope with everything and remain somewhat positive but
I can't remember ever being in a position in life where I've been content at all and o really can't imagine ever being in one.
I hate being a single parent, I have literally zero friends because I can't keep up with friendships ever and I just find it beyond overwhelming to navigate life.
My dc are well cared for and loved of course but it takes every ounce of effort I can muster to do bare minimum things and I still mess up all the time.
One of my dc has sen and it's so hard trying to advocate for them and failing at that too.
I've near enough begged my ex partner to help out more with the children (he has them EOW) but he won't, and just gave me a load of abuse and called me pathetic and that other people cope so I should be able to and I'm just at the point where I want to just jump in front of a train or something because what is the point.

*to think I'm just not capable of managing life

Not capable of thread titles either apparently.

Hi @Okok1 I hear you. Fellow lone parent and mum to sen kids. It’s hard. This week I’ve been floored by sone awful virus, really hit home how challenging life is, no one to help with washing/tidying/drop youngest at school etc. I’ve the same issue with friendships, nothing em really to contribute to a conversation unless you want to hear me hang on about fed I am. Plus no money for a sitter. I run a couple of times a week on my day off, helps with my MH. I also managed to find a means tested counselling service local to me which is helping me. I’m sorry you’re finding it tough, I think this horrible cold wet weather doesn’t help either.
have you any interests that you enjoy or something you could look into doing in the new year perhaps?
bring a lone/single parent is tough enough, add in SEN and that’s next level. I’m constantly battling with teachers etc re my SEN ones. It’s bloody hard, has such an impact on my MH.

Just be kind to yourself. Xx

You are so important. Don’t ever forget that. No matter what that twat of an ex thinks or says, you are so important. If you are feeling low and overwhelmed can you go to gP? A pill isn’t the whole answer but it might help your mood . Is home start in your area? They have volunteers who give moms a break Can you take a friends kid for a day and they take yours? You are managing better than anyone knows.. hugs.. don’t mind that idiot.. all fine to waltz in and waltz out with his comments..

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I've tried with the GP etc but there's not really anything available And i've been banned from the talking therapies service for missing 2 sessions of the phone CBT because I just couldn't make myself pick up the phone (because I am an idiot) and you can't get referred for anything behind CBT until you complete it so I'm basically stuck mental health wise
so I can't even do mental health help correctly I'm genuinely convinced there's something wrong with me or I am stupid because everyone else seems to be able to do things

@Okok1 your not stupid, your running on empty.
And as for everyone else , people only let you see what they want you to see. Many people who seem to be coping on the outside are actually struggling also.
I know a few people who on paper look like they've got it made but it's a different story behind closed doors.
I'm a bit of an oversharer and don't really care about voicing my MH issues but when your open about stuff like that it's amazing how many other people admit uo stuff aswell. Xx

i agree with @Okok1 people do only allow you to see what they want you to .The fact you rise everyday and get on is enough to know you have got this .change that mindset to I can do this .I will do this one day at a time .It’s tough being a single parent let alone one who has a child SEN .Just know you are not alone.Sending hugs.