According to the DM article:
- She tried to kill herself first in 2018 after a fellow patient sexually assaulted her at an inpatient clinic.
- Her mother reported that one of her issues was that she never felt safe after the bombing.
From ages 17-19 she was utterly terrified of being around other people as part of her PTSD. Then she gets sexually assaulted in hospital. I've been sexually assaulted in hospital and out of hospital and I there's a massive difference. It's hugely significant and unthinkable that this wasn't a contributing factor to her death. If you feel actively unsafe (which isn't the same as "not liking") in hospital, it makes seeking help and trusting hard. Both of which are required for physical and mental healing. If you have prior PTSD, it's quite unimaginable what this does to you.
- She was taking pills for breakfast and up to 11 pills daily.
- She felt numb, "like a ghost".
Medications for mental health problems can be very helpful for some people. But for some young people they can also cause other problems. Feeling like you are detached and not able to feel is actually not a positive state. It can pause the abject suffering, for sure, but it doesn't make you actually feel good. It's actually a feeling of not being human. It's rare to find someone who wants to feel like that for the rest of their lives. Shanti felt like that for a good few years, the years where your friends are getting to explore the world, make new relationships, go to start jobs or uni. From a social experiences perspective she hadn't at 23 had a chance to become an adult. We talk about the kids who turned 18 during covid or started uni during covid and didn't have the chances to go through the normal things at their ages. Same - to and even greater extent - for Shanti. This is important because when she's making the decision to end her life, what is she able to base it on? Her chronological age here shouldn't be considered as much as her life experience age. It's not the same as a 23 year old who has had an average life who suddenly at 22 was diagnosed with motoneuron disease. Shanti hadn't the chance to experience life.
Additional points:
- The human brain is not fully matured before the age of 23-24.
This is a difficult point because we consider 18 to be maturity. But biology doesn't care about what we think. Bio-psychologically she was on the cusp of maturity. Unless children can choose euthanasia, it has to be queried, in combination with the above point, whether anybody below the age of 23/24 with mental ill-health is really competent to choose death. Technically, legally I don't think it would ever be changed from 18 to 24, but psychologists and psychiatrists also have a moral duty and know that the brain isn't matured because the law says we're an adult.
- I've suffered from PTSD since I was 16 but been responding to traumatic events since very early childhood. I'm 43. I also live in a country where euthanasia is legal. I've had YEARS of therapy. As an example I've been doing EMDR for about 5 years. It's ducking awful and generally not recommended for that length of time or for the nature of my trauma, but as it's slowly working, then I'm continuing (with a clinical psychologist trained and experienced in dealing with my situations). Seven years is no time to get over major trauma. It's a very sad reality. I've thought of euthanasia a lot over the years but I have kids. The idea of slipping away peacefully surrounded by people who care had actually been very uplifting thought at times. Why? Because the pain would be over, and I'd be able to feel happy, excited even, and the love of people important to me. And what is that really? It's just me wanting control over the pain and to feel happiness.
So my conclusion. If a young person thinks they have no way of living in this world due to PTSD - complex or otherwise - including the full range of awfulness that comes with it, that reminds them over and over and over, with no escape, even when asleep, that they are not in control of their life or future, that humiliates them in public and reminds them on a daily (and nightly) basis that the world is unsafe and the people in it are dangerous, then it's absolutely understandable. You'd actually have to be insane to experience all that, never mind the precipitating event(s), and feel that you had a future to look forward to or that the present was worth living. So Shanti made the best decision for her in her circumstances. I wish her eternal peace. I wish for her mother whatever she needs to not feel the haunted sadness expressed in that photo.
HOWEVER, it's an abject failure of the psychological and psychiatric services that any young person ends up feeling this was the only option. It's worth noting that there's no pill - alone or in a cocktail - that heals PTSD. So psychological therapy is required. But there's also no single therapy that is guaranteed to heal PTSD, often it's a cocktail of therapies over time that's required, in particular for major or multiple traumas. I'm not blaming any individual, but the mental healthcare systems everywhere need a major overhaul and more so when it comes to dealing with severe trauma. The over reliance on pills, especially long term is extremely problematic, in particular in young people. Shanti thought the pills were keeping her alive. That should not have been a message she received or one that was left unchallenged. Ever. The pills weren't keeping her alive, she was. Removing a young person's agency and putting it in mind altering medications, even if they were temporarily helpful, is actually abusive. How can someone have any hope of a better future if the ongoing present feels monumentally shit and in order to remain in that shit she needs to take multiple medications? I've heard that sort of talk fairly often and it's bad, but abhorrent when it's supported by the "healthcare" system.