I can’t cope anymore.

[An0n0mous]

Hello,

I am new to this site, I guess I have joined because I need to reach out myself.
I am really struggling, I’m a single parent of two, if that isn’t stressful enough, the added pressures of this cost of living crisis is just pushing me over the edge.
I don’t have any support, it’s just me and my two children, and I’ll be honest, I don’t know how I’m getting by on a day to day basis.
I’ve reached out to a few different professionals, but still awaiting some actual support. I imagine there is a lot of people needing some extra support in these times, but having to wait whilst feeling so low makes all those dark thoughts more viable by the hour.
I can’t see a way through this, my children deserve so much better than what I can give them. I’ve wrote them letters explaining how Mum just can’t do this any more. I hope one day they will understand, the pressure was just too much.

Are they going to take my kids?

No of course not, everything you've said shows you put your children before everything else. You are not alone feeling helpless, I've felt the same too, many times and I know a lot of mumsnetters have too.

you are in a good place posting here @An0n0mous if nothing else.

what have you been up to today? I managed to put away about four sets of clothes then sat on the sofa with my dog lol.

I had a pretty shit day too, I have agoraphobia with panic disorder, so I know the panic you feel, I run away when the phone rings lol. I managed to make a really nice hot chocolate though eventually, and took some of my medication from the GP when I got too panicky. I'm alone too, and there's no way anyone will take my children, I've been honest with all my doctors and the children's school etc. they let me collect them after the rush etc.

keep talking because I've found you really are never alone on here x

Used a heat gun to cover up self harm.
Haven’t been able to answer calls.
Feeling awful I couldn’t make senior school open evening.
I’m so scared of what I’ve become.