Time to consider medication?

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I don't feel well. Either I am horribly anxious - very wired, can't sleep - all of which causes pain in my body, or I crash out of that and I am so sad I don't want to do anything. I have had therapy, CBT, and two psychologists - some have been useful, others not so much but they always end before I feel I have got to the heart of what is going on. I don't think I can face another talking therapy, I sort of don't see the point. I mean don't really see the point to life at the moment actually. However hard I work or whatever I try to do or not do the feelings that I am trying to quieten never do.

So far I have been fearful of medication. I am worried that it will just mask stuff and I am very anxious about adding side effects to my life - I already have a chronic health issue, I can't face dealing with more stuff. Also, the weight gain terrifies me (history of ED). So I just trundle on but right now I feel so fed up with it that I wonder if I should venture down the medication path.

Any experiences, good or bad, with medication, would be appreciated.

Thanks

That's really reassuring Camelongirl, I think it's worth a go if it makes me less prone to the total panic I get over absolutely every little thing.

I was on anti-depressants many years ago and I didn't really like it for the same reason jeffbezoz. That was twenty years ago though so who knows, maybe it would be better now.

Thank you for giving me a price - that's helpful. I have paid for private therapy before. I always feel a bit guilty about spending money on myself like that but it is really worth considering if it would shift things for me.