But I won't. This isn't a suicide thread MN please don't delete.
Am in therapy and such
I have kids and would NEVER leave them voluntarily.
But am sat here crying.
Bad childhood. Had too many kids young. I didn't understand the gravity of it. I just wanted love.
But now they're all older. We're overcrowded. They can't have friends round because they share rooms. My house is tiny and a mess because there's no room.
I can't work because I'm ill.
I can't drive.
I can't afford holidays.
I'm a fucking failure.
A scrounging failure.
I love my kids so much but I wish I never had them
They're just normal kids. They won't go uni, they don't want to be barristers. They've just seen their mum sit home.
They'll have normal jobs, struggle. Never own homes. Struggle to put petrol in their cars. Struggle to ever get a break.
My girls... They're going to face inequality. This abortion thing is inside my head
Women are being iradicated.
Half the world wants war
I hate this world. I hate it.
I just want it all to stop I can't change anything because my head is so fucked up.
Please don't tell me I'm a shit mum who shouldn't have had more kids than she could afford
Mi already know that