Just want to die

[havalina]

I honestly think I may wait until after the xmas period has passed and just off myself. For the last couple of months all I have felt is hopeless and pathetic and stupid and useless.

I developed Pnd after my Ds last year, then my Mum died, which made it worse. I have been up and down since and on various AD's. But I just can't see the effing point, I'm horrible to my kids, I'm just gonna fuck them up anyway.

I hate myself I really do I am useless and fat and ugly , I don't want to try any more it doesn't work life is shit I want to die. I am disgusting, I don't want to pretend to be happy for xmas I want to crawl under a rock or run away.

I have only read your first two posts, havalina, but I could have written them.

Thanks to some Ad's that work, a lovely husband and great people on here I have come through the other side. Not 100% okay by any means but getting there.

It does get better and it will take time but you will get there.

Baby steps, all the time.

Havalina, how are you? I CATed you.

Am loving Marijuana for Mothers too!

Hi all, I'm not too bad, still feeling shit, but I have my sister with me which is good.

Oh, Havalina {{hugs}}

I'm glad you have company. I hope things start to look up soon. I know it's hard. Take good care (& CAT/ email if you like)