What can you do?
Depression for nearly 25 years. Live in a very isolated community where I don’t speak the language and have maybe 1 friend who is going to be away all winter. All friends and family are back home in the UK. The snow has started and I now face 6 or 7 months more or less stuck indoors due to subzero temps. I go out whenever I can, I attend intensive language lessons every day, I try to find things to look forward to. But once again I’m struggling to keep myself alive. The difference is that I now have 2 small children (one of whom absolutely hates me and it breaks my heart) so there is no choice but to keep going. But I really, really don’t want to.
Antidepressants and therapy have not worked so far. Neither has exercise, meditation, healthy diet, etc. I fear that not everyone can be helped and that I appear to be one of those people.
I really don’t know what to do.
Thanks if you read this far.