Recently my confidence and self esteem has taken a big turn. I don't look in mirrors anymore. I'm currently eating a lot less probs due to a cold I have but I'm eating one meal a day and maybe a snack to get skinny.
I keep changing my mind about everything. I can't make decisions and feel like everyone thinks I'm stupid.
Because I'm having to find another job but then decide I'm not going to be good enough for it so I let them down but told my current job I was leaving. I think they're letting me stay now. But also I went to work today and the atmosphere was so bad. I felt like I'd been talked about. When I came out of work I was having suicidal thoughts.
The stress of having to go jobcentre every week is getting on top of me. They're pressuring me because I don't work enough hours. I'm trying everything.
I've been taking antidepressants 20mg for months now but I still feel down and don't know what am doing in life.