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just screajmed at the kids. i am without doubt, NOT cut out for this shit

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NappiesGaloriaInExcelsis · 16/12/2007 20:07

i am such a totsal shit.
what kind of a total shit screams at kids so young? i told them that having kids was a big mistake and i hate being a mum. or words to that effect.

what a cuntish thing to do.

i cant fucking deal with this at all.

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dooley1 · 16/12/2007 20:09

are they in bed now?
We all have days like this, don't beat yourself up

yulemoonfiend · 16/12/2007 20:09

I don't know many total shits mothers who haven't screamed at their kids at some point...
Give them a hug, tell them even mummies get cross, grumpy and tired sometimes and that you didn't mean it.

What's wrong, lovely? What can't you cope with?

YeahBut · 16/12/2007 20:10

If that was an indicator of not being cut out for parenting, my guess is that most of us would fail the test.
Go and apologise to them. Be honest, say you are feeling frustrated and angry but that you are sorry for taking it out on them. They'll feel better and so will you.
Some days are just crap. Tomorrow will be better.

yulemoonfiend · 16/12/2007 20:10

ah bugger, my humorous crossing out failed...

frostythesnowmum · 16/12/2007 20:11

Don't give yourself such a hard time I scream out of frustration too and I feel just as bad as you but get over it by forgiving myself really quickly
The other day I caught myself calling my 2 year old "a little shit" And believe it or not I am a respectable usually well balanced human being my child could try the patience of a saint.

Turkeyandsproutsx3 · 16/12/2007 20:11

Go and give them a kiss, say sorry even if they are asleep, have a bath and go to bed. Tomorrow is a new day and they undoubtedly love you and need you.

yulemoonfiend · 16/12/2007 20:12

Nappies, what's up?

beansprout · 16/12/2007 20:14

Tell them that you are sorry, that you got cross. Let them know that you know you were wrong and that you should not have said those things. That's really not such a bad lesson for them to draw from this.

I shout at ds some days, see his face crumple and wonder if I am actually cut out for this too. I do my best though and I bet you do too.

UniversallyChallenged · 16/12/2007 20:19

Kids are so forgiving and forgetful luckily!! It means a lot to them for us pain in the neck parents to say sorry to them.

It's then up to us to forgive ourselves

Why did it get so bad tonight?

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NappiesGaloriaInExcelsis · 16/12/2007 20:26

i went and said sorry a minute ago. they are all in bed. they sleep in same room and ordinarily i stay in the room while they go to sleep.

tonight i just screamed nasty things at them and slamed the door.

i lose my temper with them too much tbh.

i have the sentence: i a not cut out for this shit' going round my head 24/7 atm. as in, having kids was a big mistake, i am a shit mother.

i dont even feel pained and hurt... just kind of numb.

hang on, i hear someone up...

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scanner · 16/12/2007 20:30

Shit mothers don't feel bad for shouting at their kids.

lucyellensmum · 16/12/2007 20:31

Oh Nappies, this can be a really stressful time of year i find. All that pressure for the "perfect family christmas" whatever that is!!

Go and say sorry, say that you were just so tired and that you didnt mean what you said and that you love being their mummies, even when they are being little buggers. It will mean more than you will ever know, and you will feel better too

lucyellensmum · 16/12/2007 20:34

are you getting any treatment for this numb feeling?

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NappiesGaloriaInExcelsis · 16/12/2007 20:36

go di wish i could be so sure.
i think i fuck them up and do them a terrible idsservice every time i say shit like that.

i cant think wha posessed me to have 3 kids. what a i, insane?? how the hell do people Do this??

i would so be a xenia, if i hadbt been so fucked up and done any work at school. i wish i had a career to throw myself into. i can hardly goa nd get a bar job and throw yself into that, can i?

my life is about as perfect as it gets. and i know this coz ive had a fucked up time too. so i know the difference. and if i still cant see any point to being alive now, where do i go from here?

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NappiesGaloriaInExcelsis · 16/12/2007 20:37

apologies in advance if i suddenly stop posting. it will ean dp has come home and i will be talking to him instead of crying at the pc screen.

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lizandlulu · 16/12/2007 20:45

i really feel for you nappies. i have no advice or wise words, but my thoughts are with you. i hope you find a way to feel better about life.
i shout and get stressed with my dd, she is 2 and really tests my paitence sometimes. we are only human. i really admire people with more than one child as at the moment, i cant imagine coping. so you must do really well coping with 3.i hope you are feeling better after a talk with your dp.

Fubsyinapeartree · 16/12/2007 20:56

Hi Nappies, I havent got the answer, but youre not the only one.

I get really mad with my DD too, she's 6 now, and can be incredibly difficult at times. Most people think she's a little darling, its only the ones who know her really well who know the truth!

But I feel really bad too very often.

Like the others say, just the fact that you are o here and you care about it, shows you are not shit.

can you talk about how you feel with your DP?

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NappiesGaloriaInExcelsis · 16/12/2007 20:56

L&L- thank you. your kind words really help. i dont realise i want/need them, till i read them.

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Heathcliffscathy · 16/12/2007 20:58

nappies. you are human. thank god.

have a glass of wine.

they know you love them. you are good enough. end of.

and that is my professional opinion

you sound like you need some tlc.

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NappiesGaloriaInExcelsis · 16/12/2007 20:59

thanks fubsy. but the kids dont know i care, do they? they dont see me here hurting. they just feel my wrath.

my mum used to say 'i love you', often after shouting at us. i used to think 'no you fucking dont. and if you do, and this is love, i dont want it.'

and now im doing that to mine.

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Heathcliffscathy · 16/12/2007 20:59

and y6ou know what, i get like this and feel like this and I'VE GOT ONE.

if you could be a bit kinder to yourself it would impact your kids well imo.

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NappiesGaloriaInExcelsis · 16/12/2007 21:00

oh soph. im not good enough. wish i was.

cant cope with going over it. am going to get pissed and watch tv. escapism is what i need right now.

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NappiesGaloriaInExcelsis · 16/12/2007 21:01

soph, never have any more. why anyone has more than one is a ystery to me. they must all be insane.

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Heathcliffscathy · 16/12/2007 21:02

nappies you are good enough.

your mother didn't reflect on what she was doing. you do. big mahoosive difference.

yes, i think that you should get yourself a big glass of wine and something nice to watch on telly.

i never do this ever: kisses to you gorgeous

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NappiesGaloriaInExcelsis · 16/12/2007 21:04

right.

no good will come of moping.

have taken myself outside [to the fridge] , had a word [got the wine] and am Getting A Grip.

fuckerybuggerybollockspoo.

another day bites the dust [weak smile]

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