Hi .
I've posted on here loads. I have severe anxiety and depression.
I am under my GP and speak to them
Weekly. I've got massive trust issues and so find it extremely difficult to access therapy. Medication is hit and miss. I am terrified of the side effects.
My anxiety is extremely bad. I have taken a diazepam tonight just to calm me down.
I have suicidal thoughts and have few people I can talk to about this and how I am feeling.
My husband. My best friend. He picks and chooses when he supports me. In fairness, he doesn't understand mental health but he can be pretty unkind about it at times, yet other times much more supportive and kind.
Please please can anyone advise me what to do. I feel so so alone and not sure how much more of this I can take.