Hi,
Long term depressive, worsened with the death of my mum to covid on Christmas Day leaving me with ptsd. On citalopram 40mg and propranolol 80mg. I just feel so low and like I don’t want to be here anymore. I’m married, husband is supportive with two kids. The only reason I haven’t hurt myself already is because of the kids, they’ve been my protective factor but now I’m feeling so low at the thought I’ve got to live for - well, a long time really and there’s nothing but feeling like this to look forward to. I cried myself to sleep last night. I normally love reading but I haven’t been able to settle into reading since mum died.
I just don’t know what to do. I’ve had CBT before and am waiting on counselling now. Do I go back to my GP? I just feel awful, I really do.