Feeling like I can’t go on

[wlv12]

Hi,
Long term depressive, worsened with the death of my mum to covid on Christmas Day leaving me with ptsd. On citalopram 40mg and propranolol 80mg. I just feel so low and like I don’t want to be here anymore. I’m married, husband is supportive with two kids. The only reason I haven’t hurt myself already is because of the kids, they’ve been my protective factor but now I’m feeling so low at the thought I’ve got to live for - well, a long time really and there’s nothing but feeling like this to look forward to. I cried myself to sleep last night. I normally love reading but I haven’t been able to settle into reading since mum died.
I just don’t know what to do. I’ve had CBT before and am waiting on counselling now. Do I go back to my GP? I just feel awful, I really do.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I would go back to your gp as they might need to change your meds or up the dose to see if that helps. How long have you been on the meds as they do take a few weeks to kick in?
Take each day at a time, try to keep that focus on your kids.

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