Hi, I don’t know what to do. I have autism, Adhd and a provisional diagnosis of bipolar.
My anxiety is so bad at the moment that I couldn’t take me DS to school today. Every time I leave the house I feel paranoid like everyone is suspicious and they’re following me or could attack me etc, it’s horrible.
Where I live my neighbours are in their front gardens from morning till night being ridiculously noisy and just watch me every time I leave the house or return. Today it’s just too much, but I can’t just not leave the house and not take my DS to school.
It started getting bad last week so I rang the mental health team and asked if they could help as I was feeling very anxious who said someone would call me back but they didn’t. I’m on standard care so no care coordinator (I was in a good mood when I was assessed a few week ago) I just need them to understand how bad it is, but due to the autism I struggle to express how I’m feeling so everyone thinks It’s not so bad.
I don’t know what to do, my medication isn’t working, I think because the dose is too low, and I need some kind of anxiety medication.
I’ve felt so down these last couple of weeks, it just feels like I can’t function and that it’s game over, like check mate, I have no way out of my situation or how I’m feeling. Tbh I just don’t want to be here anymore but that’s not an option either because of my kids, so yeah, check mate, completely trapped. All I have done these last few days is cry and feel on edge, I’m not sleeping, just constant anxiety.
I don’t know what to do.