Is anyone there

[Strugglingalone]

Really struggling, the thoughts to overdose are overwhelming
I haven’t spoken to my mental health nurse in 3 weeks
I don’t think anyone understands, feel forgotten and invisible

You didn’t do anything wrong by posting. We were all here anyway and we want to offer some support.

I'm really glad you posted. Honestly. Anything you can do like that to look after yourself is completely cool.

You have to post. Please, we are all here

Could you speak to the Samaritans? Just talking to someone independent may help you get through to Tuesday, you can call as often as you need to. Have you got anything to keep you busy? occupy your brain until the feelings fade a little & you can put it in to words. Would writing it down help if you can't get the words out, have you got someone who can be with you & keep an eye on you? Can you sleep, often things look worse before you sleep & may feel a little better in a new day. Try to get a little exercise, sunlight & fresh air can make you feel a bit better. Try to not look too far in the future, promise yourself you won't do anything to harm yourself in the next hour, then try to do something even if it is only wash the pots & keep doing this for as long as you can, listen to music or podcasts, try to lose yourself in what you are listening to. Don't be afraid to come back here, there is always someone who will listen.

My usual distractions aren’t working, I’m trying but feel trapped and can’t stop shaking I’m trying to control my head

Nobody irl knows about this, other than my mh nurse and gp

You sound like you're in shock, can you make yourself a sweet cup of tea and sit under a nice warm blanket? Maybe listen to some calm, favourite music? I know it won't sort out all your problems but it may offer enough comfort to help your shaking ease.

Tonight won't last forever, this is so unpleasant for you but it will pass. You will get through this, even when it feels so much like you won't.

I’m sorry

I can’t settle, been crying, not sobbing, just can’t stop my eyes from producing tears. Feel out of control, there is only 1 thought that is bringing me peace. Feel like services are pushing me away when I try to call, they want me to do it

Nobody wants you to do it, I think you know that. Quite the opposite in fact, which is why these services exist to help people in your situation.

I hope you managed to get some rest overnight. The services are available to you, and if you are not finding they are what you need right now, what about Samaritans? Or can you take to someone via chat or email, so you don't have to talk?

Hi OP,
Please do continue to talk with us. Believe me, you are not alone and there are many of us who have felt how you are right now.
Another option is the Samaritans, who are great and will be able to offer other ways to help you.
Do come back to us and we can talk more...sending a ((hug)) as I think you need one 💐

I’ve been struggling all day, thoughts are so strong and don’t feel in control at all!

Need to go into work tomorrow and present myself normally, scared people will see through it all

Well done you, OP. You got through last night and I hope that helps you see you can do it again tonight. Really good to hear from you and I'm sorry today has been a struggle, but kudos to you for keeping on, keeping on.

Can’t get hold of anyone in the mh team that I know, I can’t cope with people I don’t know.
Not had a good day

Really struggling, the thoughts are so strong, not sure how to get through this!

Sorry to hear you couldn't get though to your own team. Is there any chance of that later this week?

I tried to speak to her this morning but I couldn’t make the words come out. She pretty much just put the phone down on me.

I’m out of fight, I’m tired of asking for help, it takes so much for me to ask and then I’m left feeling like this

Is she the usual person they deals with you? You'd think she'd know of your struggle if so.

I don't suppose you have enough energy to complain right now. Do you have any family who can advocate for you?

Yes my usual nurse but not spoken to her for weeks

No, no family know about this, there is nothing to complain about as such,I’m just not worth the effort

Because I end up more distressed in a+e, my area mh services are in special measures and people are just turned away from a+e with no support

Because they don’t understand, they don’t believe in mh issues

There's an online messaging help called 'Betterhelp.com, I haven't used them but I know they do typing rather than phone if you prefer. Could that work?

Gone through the matching criteria and apparently I’m not suitable

I’m not suitable for any help it appears. Mh services rang me at 1 to ‘check in’, she went away saying she would sort a cost for today, she’s just rung back and apparently I don’t need one and I’ll be fine 🤷🏼‍♀️

Looks like everything is fine then

A cost? What does that mean?

A visit - not sure where cost came from sorry.

Have they done this before, told you you don't need a visit because you're okay enough. I was also wondering how you got through at work