Is anyone there

[Strugglingalone]

Really struggling, the thoughts to overdose are overwhelming
I haven’t spoken to my mental health nurse in 3 weeks
I don’t think anyone understands, feel forgotten and invisible

I'm so sorry you feel this way. Handhold until someone more knowledgeable and able to support comes along.

Can you call an out of hours service?❤️

Didn't want to read and run, but I'm not an expert in any way. But I am in therapy for different traumas and I understand something of the overwhelm when life feels too hard.
Have you felt like this before, or is it just today? I'm wondering if something's happened.

I'm here. I'm no expert, I'm sorry. I just wanted you to know I'm listening.

You're not alone

Can I give you a ? I think you need one x

Yes reached out to services but when I’m struggling I shut down and can only answer with 1 word or so, so they just get annoyed and because they don’t know me they don’t know how to deal with me

It’s happened before and acted on those thoughts

@Strugglingalone

Yes reached out to services but when I’m struggling I shut down and can only answer with 1 word or so, so they just get annoyed and because they don’t know me they don’t know how to deal with me

It’s happened before and acted on those thoughts

That doesn't sound very fair of them. Could you try sending an email? Could it be easier to get words out in written form?

That's really tough. It feels a lot better to be fully understood, especially when you reach out. I'm sorry that's how you experience it. If this is not your first time feeling like this, I wonder what it might look like for you to manage these feelings of overwhelm? I remember reading once that somebody asked, "if I could take away the pain you feel, would you want to live then?" and the answer was a resounding yes.

I was also thinking the same as what foxy suggested, I wonder if you'd benefit from online chat rather than phone calls?

@Strugglingalone
You need to reach out for emergency help tonight. Do you have a crisis line number you can call?

Failing that, please call for medical help so that you can have support and be protected tonight. If you're battling not to commit suicide tonight then you need to call 999.

I am so deeply sorry you're going through this, you're really not alone and there are people to help.

Remember, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. These thoughts will pass. You are worthy and deserve to live.

Please call your mental health crisis line, 999 or 101.

Sorry I’m struggling to express myself without getting my posts removed

This has come out of nowhere, I had been stable for a few months which is a long time for me

I emailed my nurse but obviously she won’t see that till Tuesday and that feels a long way off right now! I can’t email crisis or anyone that’s around this weekend

We are here now if it helps at all to have someone here to talk to.

Just tried the crisis team again but it only seems to be men that are there tonight! I struggle with men especially when in crisis, so I just can’t speak at all

I’m sorry, just feel so trapped

Do you have medications that would do you serious harm? If so maybe go to A&E, I'd say that it's an emergency.

Then please call for emergency help tonight. You clearly want help or you wouldn't be reaching out to us.

We care...if you just need people to listen and talk to you tonight to keep you safe then keep posting and/or call Samaritans for free 116 123 (UK).

But if you believe you're at risk of harming yourself tonight please do call 999 or 101 - I know its scary but you're not alone, they'll want to help you and they'll make sure you're safe tonight and sort out support for you in the morning.

I don’t really cope well with being in hospital or waiting to see the mh team, I end up more distressed if that’s even possible

I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have posted

I think it is an emergency- you need to be somewhere where you are safe tonight.

@Strugglingalone when you call for help 999 or 101 request women, explain your struggle with me. Please, please make that call.

Samaritans also 116 123.

It’s ok - you don’t have to do anything that doesn’t feel ok right now

Ugh. Feeling trapped is so hard. Please try to remember you've been here before and you came out of it, you felt pretty stable for a while...you can do this again. Do you think you might be able to get yourself to A&E? That might at least keep you safe tonight, you know, buy you time until you can be seen properly.

We are here, so keep talking if you can

There is no support, mh services where I am is shocking and in special measures! Can’t even get increased support let alone anything more, reaching out doesn’t achieve anything

You have nothing to be sorry for, op. Can you cope with talking to Samaritans? Will that help?

116 123.

If a man answers, ask to be put through to a female and explain its urgent.

I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have posted

You’ll get short term help if you’re in crisis tonight. It’s not enough, but you need to take it a day at a time.

Oh sorry, I’ve just seen your post about not wanting to go to A&E - that's understandable. You don't need to if you don't want to. What you need right now is to feel like you've got agency and not feeling trapped. And you need the help to find your equilibrium again, just like you did once before.

Also I accept you don't cope well in hospital, but not coping well is better than not coping at all.

Please call 999 or 101, op. It'll be ok, you'll get through it.