Hi Thetruth56,
We're sorry you're feeling so low.
We can see you're getting some good advice from other Mumsnetters on this thread, but we just wanted to add a link to our Mental Health resources. There are lots of organisations listed which can give you some support in real life.
As you've said you have trouble talking about any of these issues, it might be worth checking out a new text support service called Shout - please click on this link for further information - giveusashout.org. Shout 85258 is a free, confidential, 24/7 text messaging support service for anyone who is struggling to cope. They can help with a range of issues including anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, relationship problems, bullying or if you're feeling overwhelmed.
Please also take a look at the Gingerbread website. Gingerbread is a charity supporting single parent families and can give advice about childcare, education, housing and benefits and much more. There's advice for young single parents here - please do click on the link.
Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real life help and support as well.
We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.
Sending good wishes, OP. We really hope things start to get a bit easier for you soon.