Feels like nothing is ever going to get better. I'm utterly sick of my husband, to the point where I can't stand the sight of him (and I've told him that). My DS16 is so depressed he's lying in bed in the dark. DS14 is mooching around and I'm embarrassing him because I'm sitting in the corner of the dining room sobbing. I'm so fed up of it all. I want my kids to be little and hard work and bloody annoying again - but at least they had lots of energy and we went places and did things. All fucking stuck at home now. Even if we could, nobody wants to do a fucking thing. I'm sick of the walks. Sick of chores. Desperately lonely. No end in sight. Can't cope with living with a depressed person anymore. 'You're only as happy as your unhappiest child' is so true. Can't live like this. Honestly feel like I could end it all. Literally bored to death.