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FightingWithTheWind · 13/02/2021 04:38

I posted earlier about taking an OD. I rang 111 and they sent an ambulance, so I'm at the hospital now. I don't know whats going to happen and I'm scared.

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cherryolives · 13/02/2021 04:42

You are in the right place, they will help you and keep you safe Thanks

KarensChoppyBob · 13/02/2021 04:59

Have a handhold from me OP.

I haven't seen your other thread but things must be pretty awful for you tonight.

As pp said you're in the right place, and you're posting very coherently which is a good sign!

Try and be honest with the nurses/doctors about your feelings, how hard you're finding things. It's nothing to be embarrassed about, lots of people are going through the same as you, you're not alone, promise Thanks.

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FightingWithTheWind · 13/02/2021 05:04

The other thread was hidden. I've left my partner at home with our 2 children and I feel awful for doing that. I just did everything wrong today.

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KarensChoppyBob · 13/02/2021 05:24

That sounds like the depression talking OP, be kinder to yourself.

What would you say to a friend or loved one who's been through what you have tonight and had to go to hospital?

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FightingWithTheWind · 13/02/2021 05:44

Do social services get involved? My partner is dad to both children if that makes a difference. And they obviously have no idea whats been going on. I dont know how long i'll be here my ECG isn't good.

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Ingvermama · 13/02/2021 08:51

Whatever you've taken will be causing that ecg to be abnormal. Let the hospital staff worry about that, and be kind to yourself about what has happened. You must have felt really bad to end up doing this, I really hope you get the help you deserve as I'm sure lots of people love you so much. I've nearly been where you are and I'm sending a virtual handhold xx

KarensChoppyBob · 13/02/2021 10:45

How are you this morning OP?

Cissyandflora · 13/02/2021 10:48

How are you doing now OP? Be kind to yourself and as others have said- think about how you would treat a friend who was feeling like you are. You will get through this awful time. I’ve been where you are. I’m just letting you know you’re not alone.

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FightingWithTheWind · 13/02/2021 10:59

I couldnt get any sleep, but the psychiatrist is going to ask my GP to prescribe something for the insomnia I have had lately, I'm very dizzy but I can go home once i've kept some water down and they take my cannula out.

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KarensChoppyBob · 13/02/2021 12:14

Have they or the psychiatrist signposted you to any mental health support, or a medication review (if you already have it, or even if not)? If not I would ask.

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FightingWithTheWind · 13/02/2021 13:27

The psychiatrist said that he would get in touch with my mental health team because I haven't known what is going on with them for a long time, he didn't mention anything about changing my medication (I am on 200mg sertraline daily). I have been referred for DBT but then was told that I didn't meet the criteria, but each time I self refer to CBT they always say they can't help me. It does all feel a bit hopeless.

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CeefBurry · 13/02/2021 14:08

Handhold from me sweetie .

Hope you get the support you need.

I am at times close to where you were at and I understand your reason for why you did what you did.

Please be kind to yourself 💕Thanks

nothingcanhurtmewithmyeyesshut · 13/02/2021 14:49

If you can afford it OP then I would look at getting some private therapy. If not DBT then at least counselling. You need someone to talk to.

FossilisedFanny · 13/02/2021 14:51

Wishing you well Op Flowers it’s so hard to get the help you need xx

Sinceyouwentaway · 13/02/2021 16:51

So sorry you feel like this. How are you now?

Cissyandflora · 13/02/2021 18:13

I hope you’re feeling a bit better now. Sleep will help if you can manage to rest.

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FightingWithTheWind · 13/02/2021 18:29

I just feel a bit surreal at the moment, I'm very tired and have a killer headache but otherwise its just like any other evening. And it should be for my childrens sake, but it just feels very strange.

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Cissyandflora · 13/02/2021 19:51

That sounds like you’re doing well. Just be kind to yourself. We say that too much and it can sound trite but I always think - how would I treat someone else going through some of the things I’ve been through? I’d be so kind and gentle to them. You’re bound to feel strange this evening. You can get through this and feel better.

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FightingWithTheWind · 13/02/2021 22:20

Starting to feel a bit rubbish again, realised my partner would rather spend time talking with his work friend for 2 hours after work than come home. I don't understand how to feel, he was supportive last night and said he wasn't annoyed, but now I feel like i'm not important at all. It is this constant yo-yoing of thoughts I can't cope with this.

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FossilisedFanny · 13/02/2021 22:54

I’m so sorry that you’re feeling low again. Maybe your partner is frightened for you and rather than burden you with his worry is offloading to his friend? Is there any one else that you can talk to irl ?

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FightingWithTheWind · 13/02/2021 23:40

I can speak to my sister, and my mum messaged me to make sure I was ok. I have spoken to my partner now, and he says that he needs a break sometimes because it is overwhelming dealing with me especially at the moment when our support system is so small due to lockdown, and he is frustrated with me because I have no self-esteem/don't stand up for myself. I still feel low but rational.

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FossilisedFanny · 13/02/2021 23:44

I’m glad you have your mum and sister. Fragile mental health affects the whole family, my dd suffers and I need to recoup sometimes so that I can continue to support her , which I’m sure is what your partner is doing. Take it slow and always reach out if you feel wobbly xx

Cissyandflora · 14/02/2021 09:41

How are you feeling this morning?

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FightingWithTheWind · 14/02/2021 12:01

I feel a bit better today, I managed to get some sleep which helped.

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Cissyandflora · 14/02/2021 12:02

That’s good. Take the day an hour at a time or even 15 mins at a time