Can’t take much more of this

[vegas888]

I’m a single mum of two teens and I work from home. Lockdown has been a total nightmare, my usually happy, easy going daughter has turned into a person I don’t recognise at times. The arguments are awful, my son is controlling and difficult, I have nobody to turn to. Both my children are with me 24/7. My parents are both passed away and I have no other family. The news regarding the lifting of lockdown never gets any better.
I’m trying to stay positive and I know there are people much worse off than me but I’m getting to the point where I dread waking up now.
I genuinely don’t think I want to live anymore.

Did not want to run after reading that last comment. Seriously, if you feel that bad, call Samaritans or email them. Don’t let this get you.

I have no experience of teenagers so can’t offer advice, other than maybe try to get out for a walk ( or a pointless drive) on your own for a bit. Carve out some time to yourself.

Hope you can get some help.

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HI I did not want to read and run. I feel the same, the constant dread is just to much. Feel like I have lost a year of my life, constantly stressed about work and home schooling. I don't feel like harming myself, but sometimes think it would be better not to wake up the next day. there is absolutely no joy and nothing to look forward to.

Thank you for your reply 🙂
I genuinely think this is affecting so many people in such a bad way. I’ve always been incredibly close to my daughter and she confides in me about everything.
Today she said some things to me that are so out of character and so hurtful.

Since not being able to go to 6th form and see her friends she’s become demotivated, unhappy and stays all day in her room.
Life is just a living nightmare right now.

Hi there, really sorry to hear you are feeling like this. It must be like living in a pressure cooker. I understand a little as I have a 19 yr old boy who I’ve been locked down with. Bullying, arguments to the point where you don’t feel like you can carry on. I did phone the Samaritans once, for the first time in my life & they were really helpful. Great to have someone just to let off steam with. I have some good friends on the phone too when I need it. You are not alone but it’s so hard for you I’m sure. Please feel free to rant away on here. There are lots of good listeners around. Take care and keep talking.

Yes I have an 18 year old son too and him and his sister loathe each to the point they won’t even speak or sit in the same room together and its been like this since before lockdown so now it’s even worse as we are all stuck under the same roof. 🥺

I really try not to react now. Otherwise it ends up blowing up into a massive shouting match. Obviously easier said than done of course. It must be so difficult for you trying to play referee between them.