I have PTSD.
This means I can't cope with a face covering. Please don't tell me I just need to think positive or get some willpower or something. I can't. I've tried and it isn't getting better - it's getting worse.
I haven't been in a shop since early December because of this. I feel massively socially isolated especially as so many of my friends are very vocal about "no excuse not to wear a mask". I know I'm letting down DH who is visually impaired and needs me to be able to go out and about and do stuff like pick up meds and I can't.
I've been sort of hanging on with the promise that this will end in the foreseeable and that there were things I could do - DH and I go for long walks in the country away from people, I have a friend I go jogging with - but recently I've been reading a lot about how vaccinations won't stop the need for masks and today an article suggesting that the government should tighten up on mask regulations and make it mandatory to wear a mask any time you leave your house - for exercise or anything - plus clamping down on travel for exercise so you can only go outside to exercise from your front door so I'd not be able to get away from observers.
This would mean I'd be housebound and probably lose my job. There is potentially no end to this. Financially we are fucked if I lose my job as I'm the major earner.
At what point do I just accept that I can't function in this world? I don't want to kill myself but I genuinely see fewer other options.