Im just feeling worse and worse

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My Anti psychotic is no longer working properly and I’m just feeling worse and worse each day. The voices are telling me to kill myself and to be quite honest I’d very much like to listen to it. Everything is just awful.

I don’t feel like I can tell anyone as I don’t want to worry anyone. I told my psychiatrist that the voices are telling me to kill myself but he’s just like okay. He doesn’t really offer much. There is currently no scope to adjust or change my current anti psychotic so I’m just stuck suffering.

Waiting for the cpn to contact me to start up again, so I don’t even have that support at the moment.

I just want to fall asleep forever.

I'm so sorry you're suffering like this OP. I am totally unqualified to respond to a post like this, but I couldn't not answer you and I'm appalled that your psychiatrist was so blase when you shared how you are feeling. Is there a crisis number you can call? And if your meds are no longer why is there no scope to adjust or change them?

Please don't listen to the voices

@zafferana

Thanks

no crisis number to call, I have basically nothing.

I’m on top dose so no scope to adjust upwards and the psychiatrist doesn’t think there’s any point trying a different anti psychotic as I’ve tried 3 and no worked right, the only other one I could try I’m too overweight for, so I’m a bit stuck.

Well that's just really shit OP. Is medication the only way to turn the voices off? Does talking help if things are really bad? The Samaritans are always there to listen, if so: www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/

Yeah pretty much. Talking sort of helps though. I’m waiting on a referral to occupational therapy too. So that should help a little bit.

I was wondering if distraction helps - if you're able to concentrate on things like a films, podcasts or books for instance - or whether the voices are a constant distraction that prevents you from being able to immerse yourself in something else?

I hope your OT appointment comes through quickly and that it's some help.

Please don't listen to the voices. They are NOT real. You matter and it is important you stay in the world. Get the help you need to shut those voices up good and proper. Sending you strength.

Hi combat, sorry you're having a shit time. It sounds really tough and frustrating. I dont know if you do twitter but there's someone called Rufus May who posts a lot of stuff about voice hearing and coping with voices. He's clinical psychologist who works in the NHS but has also heard voices in the past. Maybe some of his stuff might help?

Hi there, OP. We’re so sorry to hear that you’re feeling like this.

We just thought we'd pop in with that number for the Samaritans. You can email [email protected] or call 116 123. You might also like to have a look at the resources in our Mental Health webguide. There may be a number that's there that's useful while you wait for your referral. It does sound like you need to speak to someone soon though. Could you call your GP to ask for urgent help?

Sorry to hear the psychiatrist wasn't much use.

Very best wishes from all at MNHQ

I just don’t know. I feel so fucking awful.