I'm blatently posting here for traffic. I have been a regular user but this is a new name.
I don't know what to do or how much longer I can go on. I think I'm having a breakdown. But I can't. I have 3 small kids. And a business employing 8 people. That's 8 families to feed. I have a pre existing medical condition that means I live in constant physical pain that's getting worse by the day. I think I've had long Covid since April. And I'm in the deepest of depressions that I can no longer imagine coming out of. In fact I'm heartily sick of this roller coaster ride of being okish and then hanging on for dear life.
My genuinely darling husband is lost too and doesn't know what to do. He's trying but he doesn't seem to realise that I can no longer put one foot in front of the other. In fact, I'd rather not. I'd like to just stop now. Two of my three kids would be ok long term. One would never be ok again amd that's all that's keeping me here. Barely.