No better

[wastedyearsandtears]

I posted a long while ago about how my husband of many years had had affairs. I have now become a woman how drinks and looks for casual sex to make herself feel better
He suggests I go to casinos and pick up men. I am an ex gambling addict
He hurts me and throws me against things. I am bruised.
You cannot help me. I just wanted to write it down.
I feel so worthless. I used to be something
My friends love me. My children love me
I don’t love me. Honestly I used to be funny and nice. Now I am a sad piss head. Please you young people don’t waste your life
This probably doesn’t make sense because I have been drinking

He is physically abusing you, please can you get out and get some help? Your post made me feel so sad. You ARE worthy, you ARE loved and you ARE a good person x

You are worth a great deal - certainly a great deal more than this sorry excuse for a man is offering. Please consider getting some support. He’s done a number on your self-esteem to make you see the world in the same warped way he does.

Thank you alm23x. Don’t be sad. You are a lovely person to reply

Dear craftycovid. How kind you are. I spent my whole life sticking up for the underdog. It was my career. I could not see what was going on under my nose. I am not worth it. I know he has destroyed me with the help of the OW. I refuse to call then affairs. They were cheap dirty fucks on the side. He/she gave my a disease and I had to treatment for it. Painful and it could have killed me.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

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