Cutting a long story short, I went to rehab in May to recover from alcohol and drug addiction after my metal health spiraled out of Control. My ex took my children and I started taking drugs to cope. Fast forward to 3 in ths in rehab, I left full of hope. Stupidly I went back to my bf who is also an alcoholic as I thought he was also maintaining his sobriety. Safe to say this didn't go well and I ended up relapsing, we had a huge fight, I tried to kill myself and got sectioned. I went back to rehab for a week until they found me a place in a dry house, miles away from my home and family. I feel utterly depressed and miserable. I hate being here, I cry every day for my babies and for my ex even though I know it was toxic. To make things worse he got back in touch and said he wanted to try again and he was sorry and we decided to do long distance until we both had a good period of sobriety under our belts. The next day he change his mind and I'm left heartbroken and alone again, I am the one that ended it after he said he wasn't sure as everyone said it would never work but I'm still broken. Every day I sit and wait for the day to end. I joined NA, I do meetings, I pray, I try and do things for others but nothing helps. I know it's early days (almost 30 days) but I see no light at the end of the tunnel, I want to see my children and family. I have no friends, we are on lockdown so I can't volunteer, I am unable to work and I am just fed up of not having a life. Sorry for the long post but I am just lost and don't know how to cope. Thanks.