ive lurked for ages reading this page and not talking hoping to find someone in same position to talk to
i wake up everyday wishing id died in the night ive packed a bag to run away im not sure where to bought aload of tablets but i dont want to leave my children hence why i feel a terrible mum for even comtemplating it but i know tomorrow will be the same and the next day
my partners evil behaviour gets worse n worse every single day and even hes telling me id be better off dead
please someone tell me this feeling of desperation does get better as i cant face another day like this but what kind of mum does that make me as i have a beautiful baby 