When do you decide enough is enough?

[Lonelylockdown22]

I've been painfully miserable for over ten years. I absolutely hate my life. I really really don't want to be here anymore. I think I'm reaching the end.

Have you spoke to your gp or called the samaratins

Keep talking here. You have worth and deserve to live

What have you got the power to change about your current circumstances?

Have you got people in real life?

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

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My inbox is always open if you need some advice/ someone to talk to or just a rant!

We've all had our ups and downs that life throws at us, hopefully youve also got people around you that can help! x

Thank you but I think I'm done.

What's made you feel this way today op?

Keep talking OP, even if it's one sentence at a time! You can do this!

There's help out there for you, you may feel like this is the end but honestly there are people out there that will support you, there's councilling and support networks out there! Things will get better, the only way is up when your things are so down :)

I just realised how pointless and sad my life is. I've had five psychiatrists, numerous advance nurse practitioners, seen more GPS than I can count. The only thing that stops me doing it tonight is the thought of my Dad crying at my funeral.

Don't know if you've had them before but have you tried antidepressants? sometimes what helps me if i feel down is giving myself a pamper, have a relaxing bath, put some music on, face pack, style my hair, do my makeup, even if i'm not going anywhere it does make me feel a bit better if i'm having a bit of a down moment, if you ever want someone to talk you can always inbox me :)

Maybe try a hobby or something? find something that interests you? i know it might be difficult for you to feel like doing things but it might help take your mind off things?

@xxminniexx yeah I've tried six different antidepressants

You need to do something fun. Make a list of all the things that you want to do in life. Pick one or two that are easy to do and do them. You need something positive some endorphins running through your body. Each thing you do will make you that little bit brighter, happier. You have so much power in your life, you are so strong you have battled so much, now you can do this. It might be something little like buying a bag or baking some buns. Weirdly I took up knitting and it stopped me from worrying made me focus on the present and I made some lovely gifts for people. You have got this, positivity is a super power. Make a list of your good qualities say them over and over, let them be your mantra. Every day ask yourself positive questions. What makes me happy? Who doI love? What am I grateful for? You have to train your brain to accept the good things and you can only do this by being repetitive focusing on the positive. It's hard at first as your emotional right side of your brain might say... but or however.... you need to drown it out with positive things. Fill your home with inspirational quotes read then reread them. Try and find a hobby that involves exercise as you give off endorphins when you do it. You have got this, you are strong, you can do this.

lonely keep thinking about your dad. My dear sister in laws husband died by suicide 18 months ago. It has totally and utterly devastated her. She will never be the same again.

I totally get that you're in a nightmare. a long one. Its horrendous. But please don't do that to your dad.

I get it, sending I feel exactly the same

@colouringindoors no I know. He would never recover. We are best friends. I will hold on for him and try and make things better.

Do you have a job? Close friends?

What’s your situation? X

I am sorry that you are feeling so bad today. Ring 116123 - the Samaritans are there to talk to you at any time and however often you need. Just reach out to another human being on their phone line.

Struggling with mental health problems is very hard I know. Take all the help you can get - whatever gets you through.

I am so glad that you have such a close relationship with your Dad.

Sending love

I know its difficult right now due to the virus but why not arrange a night with your friends? that helps me sometimes, sometimes we just need a good old laugh with our friends and share our problems, they make things seem like it's going to be okay and it will be at some point you will get better, or why not arrange a weekend away when the law changes, sometimes a change of scenery for a little while can make a huge difference!, i agree with vik81, a hobby might help take your mind off things, or exercise will help due to the endorphins, why not set yourself little things to do each day? like go for a walk, go on a shopping spree, make time for yourself, watch a series or something that you can get into to take your mind off things.

Hi lonely thinking of you today. I ended up having an emergency half hour with my therapist this morning, but it helped. Sending

Thank you @colouringindoors I'm glad you were able to access some support and that it helped

My dad and my poor dcs stop me.