What do you do when you realise that you have failed at everything and there’s no hope left? When there’s no joy or happiness in anything? Where everywhere you look it’s dark?
I’m hoping to catch covid 19 and die. I can’t do it myself, I feel too bad about the children, but my god I wish there was an off switch.
I have no friends. A miserable marriage. No job. I’m ugly. My son is autistic and I don’t know why people say they wouldn’t change this if they could, I absolutely would change him. And a chronic condition of my own.
I’m sure to the outsider my life looks pretty ok but living it is hell.